it was so hard to love yourself & forgive yourself after all the mistakes & things youve done. at this point of my life i really struggle to forgive myself & love myself each time especially when i am feeling so low.
you know when you wake up each morning and you hated yourself.
you blamed yourself
you say to yourself "youre messed up"
and your day was ruined.
at this point of my life ive been wondering what am i doing with my life? i mean like seriously. i havent done anything significant for the past years? i feel so insignificant to the world. i mean like, i should at least contribute something??
seeing my fellow friends doing so great with their life, i opened facebook and see how much they have grown. some even holding certain position, contributing something to other people. & then theres me?? doing nothing? how can i not hate myself for that?
i cant wait to be amazing again. i cant wait to have a wonderful life i used to have again. 2013 & 2014 was amazing.
ps; cant wait to be married to you. because you are amazing, i believe i will be amazing too, by ur side.
soon.
very soon
